i don't hope that anymore.
well, he was at my house another time and yesterday (actually, the day before yesterday) he phoned me to ask if he could come again, but i said no, coz i was just about to see a film. he didn't like that very much but i don't really care. he can be really annoying. he talks all the time - stuff that doesn't really interest you. and when i told him something he wasn't even listening, so that i started to wonder if he only came to use my computer and internet (he doesn't have a computer, or at least no internet, at home).

oh, and the other one, the one who i've already written a lot about, is coming back to school after these holidays which, unfortunately, end tomorrow. i was in love with him so badly that i felt really bad, sometimes even suicidal (a bit exaggerated....well, i'm not sure anymore). i thought i was over him but now that i know that he's actually coming back to school (before, he said that he wouldn't come back) i'm afraid i'm going mad again. but now he's got this girlfriend again who he'd broke up with earlier. and tomorrow i'm meeting her and some others, perhaps also him, but i don't really think so... although... i'll see.

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"Send someone to love me
I need to rest in arms
Keep me safe from harm
In pouring rain

Give me endless summer
Lord I fear the cold
Feel I'm getting old
Before my time"